Tuesday, October 30, 2007


So. Halloween happens to be one of my all time favorite holidays. Yes. It is a fact. I've been rather indecisive about what my costume will be for All Hallow's Eve, but I finally came to a conclusion after wearing two different costumes [for which I will post pictures of both as well as some others.] One was a gothic doll and the other a CEREAL killer. And dun dun da dunnn [drum roll please] I decided on Pam from the Office.

Yes, I will admit. It's rather morbid, but what isn't on this frightfully exciting holiday? That's right. I'm FINALLY going to be something somewhat morbid. Because I just realized that today, I have never actually been anything dead. So, I am living the dream. But no worries, I won't scare children or anything terrible like that. I just want to embrace this day for what it's worth. Candy, scary costumes, pumpkins, and Hokus Pokus.

Anyways, Im excited to see what everyone turns out to be on Halloween. Horray! Mom and dad, you better dress up!
Anywho, here are some pictures! Enjoy! I love you all!

Thursday, October 25, 2007


So today was a pretty good day.
But slowly as it's come to an end, I realized just how lonely my life is. I mean to say, mine personally without outside influences. Friends can only do so much before you realize what it is that you've made of yourself without those friends. I went to my brother, Chris' again to go to my nephews' pinewood derby [Josh and Tyler]. I love the feeling SO much of knowing how much my nephews and brother and sister-in-law love me. It made me realize how much I wouldn't give to just have someone care about me. That is to say, the way Marci and Will care about each other. I mean, sure I've had the opportunity to take a glimpse into that...a minor minor glimpse, but a glimpse none the less. I just wish more than anything to know what it feels like to be so deeply in love with someone, and to know they feel the same way.

In the past it's gone both ways. And from recent experiences, it's hard to tell what feelings were disbursed because it was such a complicated and frustrating relationship. Either way, I was able to come to the conclusion that it was far from feelings of deep love. or love at all, other than the common love you have for another person you're close to.

Anyway, Im sort of just rambling. But I guess what my point is, is that Im so tired of waiting for something glorious to happen. And I wish I had the patience to know that something amazing is coming along, but I don't. I know there is someone out there who I will be able to soon feel so strongly about that this blog will no longer be necessary, but Im impatient. I guess maybe patience is what I need to learn before it happens, however.

Well...Im tired. These are just the thoughts on my mind right now. Anyway, I hope everyone has a good night.
Sleep well, friends and family.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Insomniatic mess.

Yes, that is me at this current moment.
Im sick and have officially lost my voice, yet I am unable to sleep. perfect timing for my insomnia to occur, right? Oh well.

I have a lot on my mind. And Im realizing it more and more these days. I went to my oldest brother, Chris' house to visit him and his family (his wife and 6 boys) on Sunday. It was such an amazing experience. Im so glad I decided to go. Chris and Becky both helped me make clear of alot of things in my life that have been confusing me.

I have a lot of choices to make, but the more I pray about it and trust in God about it, the more answers I will receive. I have a hard time putting trust in other people's hands. Mainly because of experiences I have been in with other people, but I need to realize that God is constant, and no matter what decision I make, he will be there helping me make the choices he feels are best for me.

I've been really confused as to what Im doing with school, work, dating, and living. But these are things, and I am just now realizing this, that I shouldn't stress about. I know that with time it will all make sense. I have such an amazing life with such incredible people in it, and I need to realize that more often.

Anyway. Here are some "news" updates.

This last Saturday, I went with Kali and Laura to see Across the Universe. As most of you know I have a pretty interesting taste in movies. So it should be understandable that I absolutely loved this movie. However, I wouldn't advise it for anyone who doesn't like modern day musicals or completely bizarre films. It was such a refreshing and new idea for me. I loved it. Though, on the other side of the spectrum, I can see why people would say that they didn't like it. Ratings have become very loose, needless to say, and there are two scenes when you see nudity that should only be acceptable in an R rated movie. People who are sensitive to scenes such as this, most likely would not approve of it as well as the other bizarre scenes that for some people, make little to no sense. In any case, I am a huge Beatles obsessor and I absolutely loved the film. I would see it again in a heartbeat, however, maybe next time with a group of people who aren't so completely repulsed and weirded out by the obscurity of this movie.

On another note, friends come in and out constantly in my life, so I feel I need to catch some people up on the people I spend most of my time with.

Other than my roommates [Annelisa High, Anna Keddington, Michelle Phipps, Erin Cunningham, and Christina Adreadakis], I've categorized my best friends into groups:

Afton Fullmer [My 'emo' best friend: clearly I never see Afton seeing as she lives in Washington, but she will always be my best friend. And it's pretty obvious as to why she's categorized the way she is. hahah.]

Kali Harris [My fashion-obsessed best friend: Probably the person I spend most of my time with, when she or I aren't working or going to school. We've definitely had our downfalls, but I love her to death. Her category is pretty obvious as well.]

Hillery Hathaway [My indie best friend: when im not with Kali, she's my other female companion. I pretty much tell her everything. And I love her ever ever so much.]

Brandon Leavitt [My boy best friend. haha. he holds this title proudly. He holds this title mostly because he knows pretty much everything about me. We've been through alot together, and because of him, I've been through experiences I needed to be the person I am today.]

Amy George [My hardcore best friend: Basically she has all the same musical interests as me. As well as everything else. Im so glad she came into my life, we're soul mates. we're eachother's other halves. I love her to death and am excited to see what the future holds.]

Anyways, thats a wrap. Tonight, I got the Across the Universe Soundtrack and the Bone Palace Ballet Album [Chiodos] from Brandon. I have a feeling that Ill be listening to both non stop for the next month. Oh well, bring it on! I need to prep myself for Chiodos in Vegas on the 2nd anyway. W00t. Life is good.

Everyone have a good night! I love you all.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Hello, world.

Needless to say, I've been very inactive on my blog site for the last couple of weeks. Chances are, this is how it's going to be for awhile due to my internet not working. I currently check the internet about every 2-3 days on Jeremy's computer. So Ill try to write something every once in awhile, but here's my update.

Life has been pretty crazy! And October is definitely one of the busier months out of my year! Having facebook makes it nearly impossible for me to have an outside social life. Mainly because there are constantly invites going around for parties every night, almost. And aside from that, my dating life has picked up a little bit too. It seems like whenever I want it to calm down, it always picks up. But when I want it to speed up, it comes to a complete stop! Anyway.

Since this is the only organized place I have in my life right now (sad, I know, right?), I'm going to post my calendar as far as dates and events go. Just assume that I work every week day from 11:30-3:30. And go to class on Tuesday and Thursday from 8:30-9:45 am.


13th (9:30-1am): Goth Prom
16th (time unknown): Triple date with Andy, Kalin and Jeremy at the Haunted House.
17th (time unknown): Date with Nick
18th (8-11:55): Merch desk at the Kid-You-Nauts
19th (10-2am): Hallowfunkaween dance party
20th (time unknown): Haunted house with Andy Rafn and friends
26th (7-12am): Llama Palooza
27th (7-12am): Rachel's halloween party

And for some reason the dates just build up as the days go by.
anyways. Other than that Im working alot and going to school. Life is crazy! But Im working on figuring out my living situation for the winter or maybe just spring. Or both. Im not sure. I might move into a house with my good friend, Kimmy west. Or an apartment. Or move into an apartment with my friends, Rachel, Nancy and Chelsea. Hmmm. its all up in the air right now. But we'll see what happens. Anyways.

Just so everyone knows, Halloween is my second favorite holiday of all time. I love it so so so so sooooo much! I love haunted houses and corn mazes as well. Just the entire idea of it. Anyway. I shall be back to write more later. But I hope everyone has a marvelous week and that they take this time to enjoy this wonderful holiday!

Happy Halloween, everyone!

Saturday, October 6, 2007


Well, my laptop has been infected by a virus. Meaning my wireless internet has been hijacked by an outside source. Pretty lame. But anyway, I've been without internet for some time now. All is well, but as soon as I get internet back, I will be sure to update the world with loads of information. Anyways. Everyone have a goodnight!

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