The Reason I Don't Post Often.

I never. get comments.

Shout out to Annie for taking the time to read. Thank you! :D

However, I've decided to temporarily set aside my bitterness and post a little bit of updates.

So I quit the movie theatre, thank GOODness. And I just got hired on today as part of the Victoria's Secret team! So, that's pretty exciting, I think. Wow...And now posting this, I realize there's not a whole lot exciting going on in my life.  My day mainly consists of Flirty Aprons, now Victoria's Secret and Brandon. And then occasionally Kali or Camille and my roommates.

But no matter how boring it sounds, life has been fantastic as of late. I'm just so happy with how life is going! And I couldn't be happier spending all my time with Brandon, even if it means sitting on blogger while he watches TV or plays video games. I guess I just really enjoy spending time with him :)

Hummm...other than that, I'm super excited for Thanksgiving! Even if it's still pretty iffy as to where I'm eating...I just love the holidays! And I guess the best and most promising part is that I'll get pretty good commission. haha. 

Oh OH. And I'm dying my hair back to brown! It was nice having it blonde for awhile, but I think I'm just meant to be a brunette. Not only that, but once it grows out, I can let it grow out at least 2 inches before dying it again, let alone less than an inch.

Well...this blog has been rather scattered, I just felt the need to share.

OH and ALSO. If anyone thinks Marci LeBaron Watson should begin blogging as well, I'm starting a petition on my comment wall so that she can stop avoiding the trend for all married women and finally just succumb to it.

kthanks. Hope everyone is having a great night!

.K

"Remember, Remember, The Fifth Of November"

Remember remember the fifth of November

Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...

YEAH! Happy Guy Fawks Day! Goodness, today has been a very celebratory day, in my opinion.

Today, I got another job! Yeah woo! I start on Saturday, and it's this adorable kiosk in the mall called Flirty Aprons. Pay is 6.55 + commission, and though I have had terrible luck with commission in the past, I'm hoping it will be good what with the holiday season coming up! And until I get another night job, I shall just keep the theater job (BLEH). Anyways. Very cute. You should visit their site! Click!

Also, Obama is now president! Muy Fantastico! Yes, yes, I am an Obama supporter. Hate not. But I think he'll do well for our country, and uhhh duh. He's our new president. So you're simply just going to have to adjust. It's pretty fun having a HARDCORE Republican in the house though. It mixes things up a bit. Fortunately, I'm apathetic enough about politics (as well as mildly clueless) that I don't care to discuss it. Anyway. Yay, Obama!

ALSO. It SNOWED today. Best day ever! I love snow :) It makes me all happy inside.

So point in case. November 5th = The best day ever!

Anyway, for those of you who are celebrating any of the above events, I highly suggest you end the day with a nice viewing of V for Vendetta. Edited, if you prefer. In honor of the wonderful Guy Fawks/Presidential Election/Snow. (Neither of the latter relate, but it's still a good celebratory movie.)

I hope everyone enjoys this day as much as I am!

.K

Yeah for Halloween!

So, Halloween turned out being an extremely enjoyable night. It was so much fun!! Jeremy and Sarah came over to my house, and the four of us got all Zombified. It was so very much fun. And I've posted some pictures of it below! After we got all dressed up, we went to the Haunted Forest & Psycho Manor in American Fork. It was SOO fun! Even thought I did push Brandon down to the ground and jumped over him in the claustrophobia room where you have to squeeze your way out, out of pure panic. It was scary! But he was a good sport. He at least stopped my shaking when I got out. Haha. He was also pretty entertaining to watch with the chainsaw guys. He can deny it a thousand times, but Jeremy, Sarah and I can attest that he hardcore screamed like a girl. haha.

Anyway, after we did that, we just came back, got all cleaned up and cuddled to The Happening. All in all, it was a really fun night :)

Goodness, I love halloween!

Desperation.

It's true. In my desperate attempts to find a job, I am now employed in a High School job.

I work. In. a. movie. theatre.

If I feel like my life sucks now, just think of how I'm going to feel after Saturday.
In all honesty, I was really excited about this job at first. I really did want it.


However, cleaning aisles, vomit, feces, and selling popcorn whilst making desperate attempts to upsale the customer for SIX dollars and FIFTY-FIVE cents and Hour, definitely does not sound like the ideal job. Not only that, but I also have to purchase a 30 dollar uniform. Seriously? Ugh. And although I came into this thinking that it will only be a temporary thing, A: I don't know HOW long my germophobia is going to hold out on me with the nasty things I may very well run into, and B: The economy doesn't seem very willing to just give me a break and hire me onto a good job...like babysitting for two adorable children. (I've not yet met them, that's just what the ad said...)

Oh OH. And another pessimistic factor, they're moving a brand new Cinemark Theater within 3 miles, and so they get 55% of the movies, while we only get 45%. Not only does that mean we don't get good movies, thus bad business, but the even worse thing is that IIII don't get to see those movies for FREE! What is this world coming to??

Anyways. I doubt this rant of negativity towards movie theaters is going anywhere good. I should be grateful I have a job. Sigh. Bleh. Ugh. And I suppose I will try. But I figured I would let you know so that you could feel sorry for me and stuff. Anyways! Life will get better, I assure you.

Besides, Tomorrow's HALLOWEEN!! ...and I need a costume. Hmm. But I hope everyone has a good one! Goodnight!

Kelli

Day 1,923,482 of the Job Hunt.

Ahhh yes. Job hunting. Possibly one of THEE best past times one will ever experience. You get to go to places you never thought you would go to, in desperate attempts to receive a paycheck. even a tiny one will suffice. Yes, all of the previous statements are 100% sarcastic. well, maybe 89%. Anyways. I am so tired of driving and driving, stopping on craigslist and provident living, and driving some more to hunt down as many career opportunities as possible. It's not so much my idea of fun. And yet, until I get a job, I'm stuck spending almost my entire day doing this.

So. Seeing as job hunting consumes my entire thoughts, and being, i figure I might as well blog about my progress...Or the lack thereof. Heh.

So, I have some opportunities that could possibly be extremely beneficial. I've applied all over the Riverwoods, and so far the only one I've received a call back from is Tucano's. I went in for an interview, and they said that all I need to do is take a test and receive a score of 95 or higher, and then I can get started on training. Unfortunately, the test I've heard is pretty hard. But I guess I just have to work super hard at studying.

Anyway, you'd think with the Holidays coming up, people would be hiring a lot more. Uhh, lame? Speaking of which, I'm SUPER excited for the holidays! yeah! K. Sorry for the brief side step. See! My mind's not ENTIRELY consumed by job hunting :D

Other than Tucano's, I've been emailing a woman who posted a need for a nanny on M-TH from 8-5 for a 1 year old boy and a 5 year old boy. I think that would be super fun and cool! so we'll see how that one comes about.

Also, I just barely applied for a Studio Photographer position. So I reeeally hope I hear back from them. That would be SO awesome to gain experience from! But we shall see.

Other than that, I've applied to a bunch of randoms that SHOULD call me back. And if not, I will be a very unhappy young lady. But those places include: The Wynnsong (movie theater), Victoria's Secret and....well....I can't remember the others...but there are a bunch of others that I'm spacing.

Eh, well...if the unlisteds call me back, then they can be known as important, but for now, they don't really matter, so whatevs.

ANYWHO.

I really hope that soon I can get a job, so that I can stop basing my blogs around job hunts. Because I guarantee you would much rather be sitting on Wikipedia researching something like, how Bee's produce honey or something like that. Unless you already know how...then I would ask you to post it very briefly in a comment below for my own personal knowledge.

Okie doke. Thanks for grinning and baring it through this fun little blog post. That is, if you did anyway. kthanks.

Everyone have a fabulous day!

Kelli

I'm back!

Well,

It's pretty needless to say that I've been gone for far too long from the blogging world. A TON has happened in the last while. My laptop's out in remission again, but Brandon is letting me use his old family laptop until I get mine back. So hopefully I'll be able to blog more often.

I guess I'll just give a brief little overview of my life in the last couple months. At the end of August I quit my job at Orange Soda, moved into an adorable house in downtown Provo, and ended my relationship with Brandon, the boy I had been dating. It was definitely a LOT of change at one time, but it was really good for me I think. It was a good turning point in my life, and it was a really good time for self discovery. Finding out who I am and what I need to accomplish in life. My house is amazing and absolutely perfect for me. It is, however, 3 houses away from Brandon's, but I never saw him, so it was good.

Anyway, in that month, I did a lot of thinking as far as school, work, and overall life. The idea of a mission came up a few times, as well. And I'm also considering the Art Institute of Sandy to continue my interest in Photography, which would be awesome. Anyway, I started a job at a restaurant that was opening, Spark Restaurant Lounge, and worked there for about a month. Then, I sadly lost the job due to a terrible manager who fired half of the staff. It was pretty ridiculous, but I'm pretty over it now. So now I am currently on the job hunt. I also began dating Brandon again. And I can't even begin to express how happy I am in this relationship. Words cannot even describe how much healthier it is, and how strong we are together as well as individually. :)

So.....If anyone happens to know of any job openings.. ;) eh? eh?

Oh! And of course, my beloved twin sister got married as well. Marci + William Watson on October the 9th. It was a good day :) and I couldn't be happier for them! So...Here I am in my life. Kind of in a state of limbo, but a happy limbo. :) I have a lot of options to choose from, and that's a good and bad feeling. mostly good.

But YES. I will be back shortly with new music/movies/and love to give.
I hope everyone is enjoying this month! It's probably the most fun month ever! I love pumpkins/haunted houses/candy/costumes/fall. It's basically the best..ever.

So if I don't get a chance to say it before then, Happy Halloween, everyone!!


Kelli

It's business time.

I have come to a conclusion.

And the conclusion I have come to is this:

I think I am going to make a blog site on an alternate email address. This idea was sparked when I was looking through my leads I received at work today. One of the leads that came up was a review website for movies and music, and other random things. It would be a good hobby for me, I think. I can continue to post personal life stories on here, and on my other site (which will actually have an official domain name, unlike this one) will be for reviews, for which I will post daily content. Kind of like Marie's makeandtakes.com craft site, though...maybe not quite as successful :) But it will definitely be entertaining. So entertaining that it might blow your brains out. Or something.

Anyways. I'll keep you updated on that. And then maybe later today I'll have a massive blog post coming about all the things happening in my life. Okay? Okay!

Oh, and also. This is just for kicks and giggles:

One of those days.

Well, it's one of those days. When everyone around you is working hard, and you sit at your desk, look up at the board and think, "it sure would be great if I could put some sales on that board." Then you turn to your computer to look up the next contact, and no matter how hard you try to focus on punching the phone number in, you just can't do it. Sure enough, I have friday fever. Funny thing too. I have absolutely nothing I'm doing this weekend that would get me thinking about absolutely everything BUT orangesoda, and still, it's anything but on my mind. My mind is flashing like crazy, and my ADD is not helping too much either. Thank goodness for gmail chat that allows me to chat with coworkers and not get in trouble, and the hour of work that I have left. I would also like to take a moment to thank Heath Ledger in his role as the Joker, as well as my boyfriend, Brandon. Oh! And also the Mona rope swing, and the Ting Tings, for providing me endless thoughts in my mind that contually keep cycling.

Also, if you haven't heard of the Ting Tings, though I'm sure you've heard them at some point, you definitely should check them out. They are, in fact, in the new iPod commercial singing "Shut up and Let me Go." They are such a good band! Check them out. Oh, and Cansei De Ser Sexy's new album, Donkey. Esta muy bueno.

Though you may be reading this and thinking to yourself, "Kelli, what on earth are you doing with your life?", there is a positive side to this post! And also, the only reason I feel justified in taking this little break. I finally got my first sale this week. It was a measly inlocal, but I was able to sell it for $30 when I could have sold it at the monthly offer of ten. I felt accomplished in my actions. Thank you, thank you. And then, soon after, I was able to sell another one. Thennn, the next day I sold 2 more. 4 sales in a week. Not bad, Kelli. Now I have to move onto the big boys- Selling SEO and PPC. It's going to be a long month...

Anyway, I hope everyone had a fabulous July. Time to move back into the fall :( Lame. And time to look into getting a night job to pay off the $1700 I owe my dad for fixing my 10-time resurrected car. Wish me luck and thanks for reading!

Kelli

News Update!

Yes, It's true.
I actually have something to post about! Horray!
Well, basically. I finally got myself started on my new job. I'm sure half of the people reading this have no idea what the company is. But then again, that leaves the half of you that do! Woo!

Well...........I started a job at OrangeSoda.com two days ago! My last day at Nu Skin was today. I decided that I need to devote all of my thoughts and time into training for this job, which leaves little to no time to work at Nu Skin. But it was definitely time for me to leave and move on with my life. And I am incredibly happy and grateful for this amazing job opportunity. It couldn't hav come at a better time in my life.

For the half of you that don't know, OrangeSoda is an Online Marketing company and my job title is a Sales Rep. It probably sounds pretty easy, but I can't tell you how absolutely overwhelming the amount of information I'm receiving is. But I feed off of everything I can get myself into. I've found what I think is my perfect niche. And though I'm still 100% set in studying photography, this may be a possible full time career opportunity which REALLY excites me.

Training has been a little bit stressful, I'm not going to lie. And with the fact that I've quit wint-o-greens cold turkey, it's all the more stressful. That probably sounds like a total joke, but it most definitely is not. It got to a point with those suckers that I was eating a full bag a day. Sometimes even one big bag a day. I had no idea how bad my addiction for it was until I got to my third day of being W-O-G free. It's absolutely miserable and I'm actually suffering really bad withdrawals, but I'll pull through! It sounds really lame, but it's actually a HUGE accomplishment for me to do this. And Brandon would probably be able to tell you how aggressive and mean I get with these withdrawals, but he's hangin' on! Anyway, I'm hoping these withdrawals will end soon, as well as the lack of sleep they are giving me. It can't be healthy for the amount of knowledge I must take in over the course of the next week.

Anyways, I thought I would just share that bit of information! I love you all and hope you have a fantastic 4th of July!

Kel

Hi blogger world.

Well, judging by my comments in the last 3 or 4 posts...or should I say, the lack thereof, there seems to be not much of a point to posting so much. but ill leave this here until someone actually comments.

I've set up a flickr account for my photography.
Check it out.
http://flickr.com/photos/kellilebaron/

And have a good day, everyone.

Photo shoots!

So due to this glorious weather, I've been able to go out and take some good pictures! I did a shoot with my roommate, Alex. It was pretty retro. I'm pretty stoked on it. And then shortly after, I did some engagement pictures for a friend from home, so that was pretty cool! Im pretty excited about all of it. And I'm hopefully going out with Marci and then Kali too for a shoot too. But for now I'll post some of the pictures I took at both shoots.
First I'll start with Alex's:



And then Gary and Laura's:

Hello, Blogger world.

So, this weekend I'm doing my first real photo shoot ever. And to be honest, I am soooo nervous! They're engagement pictures for my friend from high school. To get a little practice in, since Im a little out of shape, Im going out with Marci tomorrow and doing a shoot in the morning! And then tomorrow after work, Im doing my roommate, Alex. Sooo, hopefully they're good enough that I can post them! But yeaahhh, just a little head's up!

-Kel

More Videos.

Rilo. Kiley.

So those of you who know me well, probably already know I tend to exaggerate a little bit too much sometimes. But I use absolutely no exaggeration when I say that April 23, 2008 was probably the best night of my entire life. If you know me well, you will also know that Jenny Lewis is probably my biggest obsession as well. She is my music icon, and seeing as music consumes my life, that is a pretty big deal.

Anyway, Jenny Lewis is the lead singer of Rilo Kiley. She also sang in The Postal Service, for those who don't know who Rilo Kiley is. Wednesday night, Jon (who is also in love with Jenny Lewis) and I had the amazing opportunity of seeing Rilo Kiley in a tiny venue. It was absolutely INCREDIBLE. We waited for two hours in line to get front row, center and it definitely worked. Jon and I were RIGHT in the front and center. We were practically sitting on the stage, that's how close we were.

Along with Rilo Kiley, Jenny Lewis' best friend, Morgan's band played first: Whispertown2000. Also an INCREDIBLE band. They had a drummer who not only played in every band that evening, but also played guitar AND drums at the SAME TIME. It was phenomenal! Previous to Whispertown, an artist named Michael Runion played first. He was amazing as well. And all of the bands were friends, so it was awesome to see the connection between them and how they acted together. It was amazing!!!

Then...Jenny Lewis came on stage. And I cannot tell you the overwhelming state of happiness I felt once she started performing. She is absolutely incredible lived. And they played an AMAZING set with all of my favorite songs. For which I was able to grab the set list at the end. w00t! I took a bunch of videos that turned out awesome. I'll try to post them on here too. At one point in the concert, Jenny came and sat on the amp RIGHT next to me. I think that I almost died. And she looked at me and I completely forgot the lyrics. Ugh. It was amazing. She then even sang to Jon and WINKED at him!!! Lucky.

All in all, it was the best night of my life. It was great. The one thing missing was our chance to meet Jenny Lewis, but oh well. I guess you can't win em all. We did, however, get to talk to Morgan and Michael Runion and their band members at the merch desk after the show, so that was pretty cool.

Anyway, I'll post some videos and pictures of the blessed night later. Thanks for reading! Here's a video I would like to dedicate to Marci for right now. Since it's her favorite song :)

So the latest:

I'm sorry that I haven't posted at all in the last month! But to be honest, there is just nothing new in my life. Other than the fact that I am looking for another job. I desperately desperately need one so if anyone knows of any good openings let me know. I'm just not getting enough hours at my new job and it's miserable! So puhhh-leeeease!

Anyway, other than that, there's really nothing new. Other than my latest obsession with Gossip Girl and my EXCITING chance of going to California and seeing Rilo Kiley and visiting my grandma. It should be fun. Anyway...yeahhh, nothing new other than that.

Oh, and I have been quite obsessed with some new bands as of late. Some more than others, but I'll post them from most obsessed to not so much.

The Hush Sound- Goodbye Blues & all other albums
Panic at the Disco- Pretty Odd
Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova- The Swell Season
MGMT-Oracular Spectacular

Horray!

SPRING IS FINALLY HERE!!!
I don't know if I can express my excitement for spring time in Utah! It's probably my favorite time of the year. Maybe. I LOVE summer though. Gee, I just don't know.

Anyway, the sun has come and given me inspiration to write. And for some reason there is absolutely no possible reason for me to be sad during this joyous time of year. I cleaned my car to perfection and now I can finally feel that overwhelming sense of happiness while driving with the windows down blasting old school All-American Rejects, and the Weezer Green Album. My life is absolutely complete.

And for a little news update on, well, basically everything. My hair is still basically black. But now it's short. And cute. And well, I've really grown to love it. I'll probably post a picture. Hmmmyeah! And also, I decided to move to Alpine Village for the summer. It's a gorgeous brand new complex a couple blocks from Raintree. I'm super excited.

Also, I'm planning on doing hair. I'm not sure when, but I want to do an internship at a hair salon, and then take online classes too and eventually get my associates in photography.

Anyway, that's basically what's up. Any other updates, I'll be sure to let you know. And as for my dating life. Well, if you're really interested, you should probably just call me. It's pretty complicated. Haha. But overall, I hope you're all doing well. And I hope you all have a fantastic easter! I'm excited to see pictures of the kids! :)

Kel

Wow.

I really suck miserably at posting blogs. But so much has been going on in my life that I just never have time to post. Life is growing increasingly stressful by the day. And it's gotten to the point where my life is consumed by other people's problems. It's getting to an unhealthy point, so here I am. Back again. Getting involved in my own life again. Sooo, hello blogger world! I hope everyone is doing well! I'm getting my life back on track currently, so as of now I don't really have much to post about as of now. But hopefully over time my blogs become alot more purposeful.

Oh! Jon came to visit a couple weeks ago and that was a lot of fun. We hung out a lot at his friend, Alex's apartment. And slowly we all became really good friends. And seeing as Alex lives at the same complex as kali, we all hang out a lot.

So in the end, Alex and I ended up recording a cover of First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes and it turned out sooo good! And now we want to record a bunch of covers together. It's awesome!

Anyway. That's all the news I have! I hope all is well with everyone!

Kel

Valentines Day.

Every Valentines Day I tend to care less and less about this ridiculous holiday. Previous to this V-day, I have set out to find at least SOMEone who will be my valentine. In the end I always do, but they're generally best guy friends who have no motive to even wish me 'Happy Valentines Day," Which led me to this year. This year I decided I was going to boycott Valentines Day and turn it solely into Single Awareness Day, where Kali and I spend the evening playing Wave Racer on N64 and wear lots and lots of black.

However, my plan this year has failed miserably. It seems as though when you're perfectly happy doing one thing, the opposite thing comes into play. Grrr. So this year, I had 2 dozen red roses delivered to my door. And reading the card, there's only one boy I know who would put "meh" in a part that's supposed to be sincere :) haha. So then I realized that I have way TOO many valentines this year. I set out with the sole purpose of just having one. And then I couldn't say no to all of them. Yes, I know. I'm a terrible person. But Kali didn't have one, so she became my female valentine, and then Jon was the one I wanted to begin with, so I asked him. And now he's my long distance valentine "/ And thennn Ryan asked and well, I couldn't say no. It's not like I already have a Provo valentine anyway. And then I decided to just screw it all and accept that I'm not going to be able to limit myself to just one. So now Dan's my ward valentine and Brandon's my best friend valentine.

All in all, I'm a terrible person for not having just one Valentine. But I figure, I'm not dating any of them so why tie myself down? K, that's really not what I'm thinking. I guess I'm mostly just thinking, Valentines Day should stay Single Awareness Day, because in my opinion, that's all Provo is anyway; Single. So I give up on trying to stand out with a relationship when I fit in so well without one :D

I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentines/ Single Awareness Day! Eat lotsandlots of candy! :D

Love.

Part 1: You taught me how to feel things inside me that I never thought anyone could feel. To this day, there are times when I wonder if I could ever love like that again. Ever feel so close to a person, and yet so far away. There were times when I felt like I could kill just for you to feel what I felt. It was a feeling almost tangible, and yet, not. For if it had been so, I could have then placed a finger on what it was I felt. It was stronger than any connection I have ever felt for any human being. And the next closest tangible thing I could connect it to would be fire. And yet, the feelings I felt could never have been returned. I loved you. And I think I would have laid my life down for you. I look back on my life and I miss it. I miss you. I miss being able to feel that way about someone. To know. To feel. To love. I miss it. I miss you.

Part 2: You are the reason I know what it is to feel loved. The feelings you showed me are unlike any feelings a person could express for me.You would have done absolutely anything for me, and I took that for granted. I loved you and I wish now you knew how much I wish I had made more of a note of that. You are and always will be my best friend. I am sorry for hurting you so immensely. I know now what it feels like to have so much love for a person and not have it returned. It's sad how a huge act must come into play for you look into the past and realized what it was that you missed out on. I loved you. I love you. You set a standard for me that I ignored, and that was foolish for me to do. You deserve better than that, and now you have it.

Part 3: You must know how much you hurt me. And yet, I have so much sympathy, so much empathy for the things you are going through. I hate myself for the things you put me through, but I hate even more what it is that you must now and have been going through. The obstacles you face I can so vividly remember. I love you. You are one of my dearest friends. I want more than anything for the future to be filled with good memories. To set aside these regrets and tainted recollections of the past. Please don't hurt. And please turn to me. You hurt me, but for that, I forgive you. As Ben Gibbard says repeatedly, someday you will be loved.

Part 4: To move on is a big step one must take. The heart has an incredible capacity to love, to hate, to break and to heal. It's so bizarre to me how much one can handle at a time. The feelings one can possess at one time, even. I have faith in the future. I have hope. For "I know my heart belongs to someone I've yet to meet."

The Pedial Chronicles- Day 2, 3, & 4.

So, day 2 isn't one that really matters, other than the fact that my beloved parents brought crutches to me, so I was able to hobble around a little bit. Previous to that, I had just been lying around the house all day. Then I went to Seven Eleven with Kali and Rachel. It was good to finally get out. I'm too ADD for being bedridden. Then, of course, Kal and I went back to her apartment and played Wave Racer.

Day 3:
My manager made me work on Thursday. And man, that was a bad time. A: My car overheated on the way to work. and B: My foot got more swollen at work than it had been the entire time it had been injured thus far. Anyway, I was able to sit all day, which was nice. But none-the-less, my foot still hurt. Then I finally left work and was able to drive home just barely. Then I waited for Dylan to take me to urgent care. That was actually a lot of fun. Haha. I was able to ride around in a wheel chair. And that was pretty cool. :D I got X- Rays for my foot and then we waited for the results. The doctor told me I have a contusion of the foot. Which is like giant bruise inside my foot. So YAYYY no damage was done! And I was able to sort of start walking on it. Though, I stayed on my crutches to be safe. So, then I went back to my apartment and hung out with Kali for awhile. And that's the end of day 3.

Day 4: My foot looks AWESOME. hahah. I didn't take pictures previous to this day. But basically my foot mostly just got more swollen. But DAY 4 my foot looked SOO bruised. It's hard to fully tell in the picture, but I'll post them anyway. Anyway, I am now able to fully walk on my foot, with the exception of a little limping. But my foot is mostly healed. And basically from this point on, things can only look up.

As for my car, I don't really know what to do. I don't know if I should bother getting it fixed right now. To be honest, I'm kind of just extremely compromised with it and feel like giving up. Looks like I'll be relying on the bus system once again...awesome. ughh.

Anyway, that's the end of the Pedial Chronicles Days 1, 2, & 3. :D Should anything else come up, I will be sure to blog about it.

The Pedial Chronicles- Day 1.

I meant to post this yesterday, but I was unable to, so I'm posting this now! So think of the time period as one day beforehand.

Well, last night I was hanging out with Kali...of course, and we decided to go swimming in a heated pool. So we ran out and Kali decided to fake push me in, so I jumped in, and landed on the side of my foot into a 3 foot pool. Extremely genius of me. One of my better choices if I do say so. Haha. Anyway, I said to Kali "I think I just hurt my foot." Of course she kind of just laughed it off. Then I said "Kal, I really think I just hurt my foot." So I asked her to move it back and forth to see if it was broken. Probably not the best thing to do. Anyway, I started really getting scared and lifted my foot. It appeared as though a bone was sticking out and Kali goes "dude, I that's gonna buise so bad tomorrow." hahahah. Oh boy. Anyway, I hobble up to the apartment. And I'm sure my foot was still numb from the shock so I was able to run on it.

Then we walked in and Kali's roommates, Annie, Kristen, Julianna, and our friend, James, were laughing because we were only out there for about 5 minutes. Then they realized something was wrong so they covered me in blankets as I told them what happened. The bump had gotten bigger and I was freaking out. Mostly because I didn't have health insurance, not because it hurt. Well, I called my parents and instantly began crying. Again, not because it hurt, but because I was scared of the consequences of a broken foot. Then, I sort of started going into shock because I was in a bikini and a tank top and I was frozen, and also crying really hard. So, I calmed myself down.

I wish I had taken a picture of it, but alas, I did not. Anyway, Kali's friend came over and iced it and told me not to waste money on going to the ER just yet and that I should ice it for the next two days. He said that if it was still swollen by then, that I should get it checked out and that it was most likely a torn ligament.

Well, then we played Wave Racer for an hour and Kal and Annie drove me home. And that is the end of The Pedial Chronicles- Day 1.

I'm Alive!

Sorry it keeps taking me so long to post blogs. Life has been absolutely crazy lately. Definitely the craziest it's been in months. Maybe even years. Haha. Anyways, I'm back to blog about it, so do not fear.

Well, this last weekend I was finally able to get my car back. It is absolutely INCREDIBLE to have it back. I don't know how I got along so well without it. However, I still ride the bus to school. I'm just going to park my car at the bus station and then take the bus from there. Because it A: Saves gas and B: Saves money I would otherwise spend on a school parking permit.

As of late, work has been killing me. It doesn't help that my sleeping schedule is extremely off. It's terrible! I go to bed at 2, and then wake up at 7 and that is about the most amount of sleep I will get. Other times I might only get 3 hours of sleep. Like last night, for instance. I shouldn't be complaining. It's my fault for setting it up that way, but I don't get tired until late anymore. And a certain boy in California is only online after 1:00 AM anyway, so it's the only time he's available to talk. Rather unfortunate.

Anyway, it wouldn't be so bad if my manager didn't expect so much from me now. As of late, she's been making me come in right after school on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. It's absolutely killing me. I feel like I have no time for anything. And good thing I haven't had any big assignments, because I would be dead right now were that the case. Because of this, my day goes as follows:

School and/or work: 7:30-3:30
Go home and take a nap: 4-6 or 7.
Do whatever work I have to do: 7-9.
Hang out with Kali: 9-1.
MSN: 1-2.

Pretty moronic of me, I guess. I really should get more sleep. And I think I am going to get another job, because financially, I'm not doing so well. I make about 265 every 2 weeks. Which isn't even what the cost of rent is. So I have about 250 to spend on things that are necessary like gas and food, etc. It's hardly enough to get me by if I'm going to start paying cell phone bills and stuff like that as well as school. So I really do need another job. And more sleep. Haha.

Other than all of this, I am extremely happy with life. Having a car back makes me feel like I'm independent again. It's a good feeling.

Well, I promise to keep blogging. I am such a slacker! But I will catch up. I hope everyone is doing wonderfully!

Kel

cigarettes and chocolate milk.

Well, ladies and gentlemen, I finally did it!


I went from blonde to brunette. no, not just brunette. DARK chocolate brown! Horrayyy!!!


I was incredibly nervous, but I've been planning it for quite some time. I think I may almost like it better than when I'm blonde. I can't believe I actually did it. Not only that, but that I finally picked a solid color that I'm content staying with! I have a feeling I'm going to stay a brunette for a very long long looooong time.

Before:



After:

Rebirth

Well, my camera has officially been brought back to life! I am so so happy! Yesterday I went out and did a photo shoot with one of my good friends, Rachel. It was so great. I missed that feeling so much. Being behind my beautiful camera. Anyway, I'll post some of those pictures on here. And if anyone wants pictures taken, you know where to find me! I guarantee my face will most likely be behind my lens for quite some time now.
Horray!

Dear Everyone,

I would like you all to know how very upset I am with myself for selling it to my roommate when I could have probably sold it for 100 bucks. But it's alright. BECAUSE my roommate, Michelle is in debt by, like, 4,000 dollars. So I don't feel so bad. And also, she has a lot of the same musical interests in me. so she didn't delete any music. And yes, Kali. I know, I know. We have the EXACT same taste in music. But I feel the need to give it to people who are in poverty. Yes, I tend to exaggerate. But anyway. I feel like I've done justice unto the world by doing so.
Well, adios!

Hello family and friends!

Sorry I haven't written for some time! I'm a lot better at updating my blog than Kali, however. So that's a plus! Anyway, I just really haven't had anything to written about really because my life has been so simple lately. But now I finally have things to write about!

Life has been sooo so good to me lately. And I am so blessed right now, even though, once again my car is in the shop.

So here are the updates:

-The roommates for which I cannot stand and have caused A LOT more drama than necessary are moving out tomorrow. YEAH!
-And Kimmy West is moving in tomorrow too! I'm so excited!
-Kali comes home on monday!
-I started school on friday and this is my new schedule:

Monday:
English - 8-8:50
Humanities- 9- 9:50
Music- 10- 10:50
Portuguese- 11- 11:50

Tuesday:
Nu Skin- 7:30- 3:30

Wednesday:
English - 8-8:50
Humanities- 9- 9:50
Music- 10- 10:50
Portuguese- 11- 11:50

Thursday:
Nu Skin- 7:30- 3:30

Friday:
English - 8-8:50
Humanities- 9- 9:50
Music- 10- 10:50
Portuguese- 11- 11:50

Nu Skin- 12:30- 3:30

And I'm hoping to get another job soon as well working with photography.

I also FINALLY bought an 80G iPod classic. and my life is complete! I lost my iPod for a short time there and finally found it after I bought my 80G so I sold it to my roommate for 50 bucks. Which is awesome because the screen is all cracked from the sun.

My car is once again in the shop. Surprise surprise. The windshield wipers are broken this time, which ultimately makes it impossible to drive in the snow. So I'm figuring out transportation and depending a lot on the bus system, but it's also nice to not waste gas I guess.

Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing really well! I love all of you very much.

Kel

My Camas Upbringing.

I don’t know why exactly it is, but for some reason, I can only get inspiration to write when I am in Camas. As I was driving to the airport this morning with Afton’s mom and dad, I received this overwhelming feeling to just write. That hasn’t happened to me in over a year. And I miss that. I miss the ability to just write freely about anything and everything. But here it is. The inspiration. I guess you could say Camas is kind of like a muse to me.

This trip, more than any other, brought back a lot of memories. Things I had completely forgotten or blocked out. The drive to the Fullmer’s is a long one because they live out in the middle of no where. But riding out there brought back a rush of memories. Back when I was in love with my best friend, Austin McCormick. Oh, how much I loved him. And the two of us, we were like two peas in a pod, minus the fact that I had feelings for him that go far past friendship. He was there for me, and I was there for him. I remember New Years Eve and New Years exactly 3 years ago. He came over to my house to watch the ball drop. My family was absolutely crazy about him. It was one of the best New Years I can remember. We went snowboarding for my first time ever the next day. One of my best memories I have of him. We haven’t talked in a long time. And he’s on a mission now, but I miss him so much. I even had a dream about him the other night.

In high school, there were always a lot of cliques. Obvious statement, I know. There were the preps, jocks, the nerds, the scene kids, and of course, the hardcore kids. There’s not much of an Indie scene in high school as there is in college. In Provo, that’s really all there is. The zoobs, and the indie kids. But in high school, it was always the hardcore kids I spent my time with. My musical obsession started in high school as well as my photography infatuation. I didn’t think there was so much drama in those cliques until I came back to find it overwhelming. I miss being part of that crowd. But then, I don’t really miss the drama.

Last night, a big group of people met up at Red Robin. There was Tony, Afton, Stevie, Camille, Maria, Daniel, Skyler, Turner, Eric and Ryan. A big melting pot of random people. A lot of them didn’t even know anyone in the group. Ryan was one of those people. I’ve never really talked about this up until now, but Ryan Wolk is my ex boyfriend, er- I guess that’s what you can call him. We can’t really figure out if what we had was even considered a relationship, but just go with it. If you knew me in high school, I was always extremely fickle. Especially with boys. Take Zack Whittle for instance. I always liked him when he didn’t like me and he liked me when I didn’t like him. Coincidence? I think not. I took a French class my junior and senior year of high school. There I met Ryan. I was in love with Austin until the end of junior year, so Ryan was definitely an interest, but I focused most of my attention on Austin. And a little on Zack too. French class is by far one of my best accumulated memories that I have. I would trade just about anything to relive it. The French teacher, Mr. Minder, loved me up until Ryan left and then hated me as soon as he was gone. So I guess you could say it was more that he loved Ryan, and since Ryan liked me, Minder went with it.

Anyway, Ryan graduated, and we started talking more and more. He was off at college in Western Washington, but I started liking him a lot. He was my best friend in the entire world, as it started out to be. But I was too immature for it, and I couldn’t handle the commitment of a real relationship. Then he came home and we decided to test the waters. Over this time, Ryan fell in love with me. And up until now, I didn’t realize that the same reaction was happening to me. However, I freaked out being the normal hormonal high school junior [though really, my hormones messed me up a bit and sent me flying back to the freshman mindset. Long story.] and I couldn’t handle it. I didn’t talk to him for about 2 weeks and over that time, decided that I was serious about getting into a relationship with him. However, when I talked to him again, I found from one of my best friends, that my best friend, Amber and Ryan kissed while I was thinking things over. I admit, I should not have just completely shut him out, but my own best friends backstabbing me like that was a little painful too. For a time I wanted to have nothing to do with either of them. Then eventually I came around. To Ryan, anyway. Amber never actually apologized, and I haven’t really spoken to her since then. Ryan and I started talking again, and when he went back, we started dating again. It went off and on like so for about 2 months. Finally, I decided it couldn’t work. His Atheism and my Mormonism conflicted a bit. Along with me moving to Utah. A couple weeks after, he started dating a girl and I moved to Utah. That was the end of it.

We had a deep in depth conversation about it yesterday at Red Robin, and I finally realized that I was in love with him at the time. I was foolish to not realize what he would have given up for me. He cared about me more than anyone ever has. And I was an idiot to ever turn it down. I think it’s the only thing I’ve ever honestly regretted. But he’s my best friend, and that’s all I could ever ask for. I want more than anything for him to have what he deserves. And he does, and I think that’s all I could ever hope for. Other than for me to find what it is I am looking for. It really got me thinking and realizing that I could do so much better than what I’ve put up with. I’ve been wanted. I’ve been loved. But by two separate people. I need to put two and two together and realize that he’s out there. I just have to realize it and wait.

Washington holds so much of the love and inspiration that I feel. There are places there that I just feel it. Just driving through the little redneck town makes me feel at home. I miss that. Early this morning we drove past JDZ and Camas High School. I remember the feeling of waking up early to catch the bus. Walking through the wet grass toward the school building and running into people before school. Sitting in the library with friends or going to the lunch box for hot chocolate. Singing in the choir room before 1^st period. Or playing on the pole on the playground before class at the elementary school. Going to track practice after school in the springtime when the grass was still covered in dew. I remember it all so vividly. I remember late start days when my mom would take us to Squeeze and Grind for hazelnut hot chocolate and tuxedo muffins. This is where I grew up, this is what my years of growth consisted of. This is what made me the person I am now.

Utah is home for me now. But Washington will always hold a place in my heart. Not just the people, but the memories. It may sound cheesy or lame, but it’s real and this is how I actually feel. I am so blessed to have the experiences and the memories that I have. And I am grateful for the decisions that have led me to where I am now.